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Hey all.
To be honest i could not come up with a title for this post.... :( so here i am spilling my guts to you guys right now...

Yesterday i had lots of fun with my girls shopping and doing all that fun stuff!  I am so blessed to have such great friends! :)

Then we went to Grand March....
my heart sank... i thought that i would be able to handle all of this not going to prom, and that it wasnt going to be as bad as i thought.. but i was def wrong... 
seeing all of the happy people together I dont know what came over me but it was hard to watch. Everyone looked to great and i was soo happy for everyone there but thats when the little green monster- jealousy got into me.

I am soooo impatient and i bet you all are sick of hearing me moan and complain about this but its pretty hard. I am waiting for the future husband that God has in store for me, if thats what i am called to, if not then  I will be a nun if that is God's plan for my life. But its hard not to want and long for a relationship currently even...... ahhh i am soooo screwed up!!!!!

I cried it out with my mom last night and i thought today would be better and it semi is, but its still tugging at my heart.... goodness....

I guess its just hard for me to see certain people that i know, get everything they absolutley want.... When i cant get a simple date to Prom.....

Sorry for all the moaning and complaining, but i feel like crap and i gotta let it out... :(
God bless,
Ashley