NEEDING PRAYERS

Its prayer time... last night Kym Delarosa Allex (my amazing youth minister) and family had a grease fire at their home. Everyone is fine, but Preston has 2nd and 3rd degree burns on his right hand. He needs prayers because of possible skin grafts. Its prayer vigil time! He has and appointment at 8:15 tomorrow AM, pray from now until tomorrow afternoon for sure. Comment here if you are willing to join me! :) We need everyone!
Please pray!!
God Bless,
Ashley

Finals Week...

Hey All! Here is what consumed last week.......

My School Planner from Last Week...
























My School Planner for this week....

Fantastic huh?!?!? Please pray for all of us!! Its a lot!! :/

I am hoping to blog again tonight but we will see, i have 2 powerpoint presentations due tomorrow and i start my spanish final tomorow as well, then it just continues to snowball... we will see!

God Bless,

Ashley

At The Foot Of The Cross

"At the foot of the cross
Where grace and suffering meet
You have shown me Your love
Through the judgment You received
And You've won my heart
And You've won my heart
Now I can

Trade these ashes in for beauty
And wear forgiveness like a crown
Coming to kiss the feet of mercy
I lay every burden down
At the foot of the cross"

A song that i have been falling asleep to each night, but do i really realize the meaning behind it???
(Let's back track!)

Being a catholic in a public high school is SUPER intimidating. I feel the looks and the questioning of who I am and if they should even talk to me. I know it all goes on so its not anything new to me one bit. But even though i know its going on doesnt mean that it DOESNT effect me, because as much as i hate to admit it does affect me. 

In all honestly i really wish it didnt effect me, just to go on and blow it off, but its not as easy as it sounds. Thats where i find myself at the foot of the cross. 

Walking the halls i can feel and sense it. And i am ashamed to say that i want to hide from who/what i actually am. Thats where i find myself at the foot of the cross.

In high school in general you are judged and even looked down apon for what you wear, what you say, what you do and sadly enough what you believe. Acceptance is something that i can honestly say i dont come by easily with many people, but im working on coming to terms with it.
Thats where i find myself at the foot of the cross.

 Im not perfect, but i am who He wants me to be. I am praying that God will give me the strength to perserviere through this and let his light shine inside and out of me. Thats where I find myself at the foot of the cross.

So now looking back on this amazing song... wow does it mean a lot :) after all of the things that go on in my life, the good and the bad, eventually i find myself at the foot of the cross. And all i can do is just watch, with tears in my eyes, listen and wait. For he is the Lord my God. Forever i am grateful.

Thanks so much to Kym for going to Caribou with me to talk tonight. You really opened my eyes :)

If i can ask one thing of you readers is to pray for me right now, i just had to tell someone something that isnt easy. Please pray for me and this person, we both need it.

God Bless,
Ashley

Let me be his hands..

Hey all! :)

In the last post i wrote about the service project that i am doing with 3 other wonderful ladies :) We are all super excited and cant wait! 

One of the things that has been on my mind today how our mentor told us that this night (of our project) is going to be about honoring Him, not ourselves. Hearing that reassures me that everything is going to be ok. All of our hard work is going to pay off soon, this is going to be a huge success, only if we let God lead us.

Knowing all the work that is ahead of us is a lot that consumes my mind currently, but giving it to God is the best thing. He knows all of our weaknesses and our strengths and all he wants to do is lead is, thats all :) just givin' it to him :)

Thinking and Praying will you please too?  Thanks

Ashley :)

White Rose Waltz

What could these girls have in common with this college??

This is what we have in common!

YTM Stands for Youth In Theology and Minstry :) Which is an amazing program!!! Emily, Jessie and Myself were invited to go and all i can say is that we are glad we did! :) Ytm is an amazing place filled with amazing people doing wonderful things! Since we went this past sumer (2009) we are sent home with a mission. We are asked to do a service project to help in our community :) So along with our AMAZING mentor

This is Kym Allex! :)

 We present..... "The White Rose Waltz"

The White Rose Waltz is….

A father-daughter formal event!

That consists of delicious food and great prizes!

That has lively speakers!

And I willingness to hear the word of God!

For Fathers to commit to living out their job as the guardian of their daughters, and willing to respect their dignity as well!

And the MOST IMPORTANT…

This is an event for young women to commit to staying pure until Marriage!

At St. Henry’s Catholic Church in Monticello, Minnesota


March 27th, 2010

Doors Open at 5:30

Event starts at 6 until 11pm

OUR MISSION STATEMENT:

“ The St. Henry’s YTM delegate ministry, is



a ministry called to serve the young


women in our community,


By supporting and encouraging


them to live out a chaste life. And also to follow


the example of Saint Agnes. Who was given a


soul made beautiful with the


jewels of grace and virtue.”

This project is something that we are all passionate about! :) Let me know what you think and if you would like to participate or volunteer your time!

Thanks so much and God Bless,
Ashley

2009 Milestones and Recaps

Well hello NEW YEAR! :)

Haha! Hey All! :)

Wow can you belive its 2010?!? I cant! In the spirit of the new year i think im going to so a review of 2009....(its gonna be all over the place! Be Ready!)

1. I became a Youth Board facilitator for our church youth group! :) Super cool!
2. I went to an AMAZING camp at St. Johns (The college) for 2 weeks in June. Met amazing people and just had a great time!
3. Worked on many church projects!
4. Attended muliple Lifeline masses! :)
5. NCYC! :) Kansas City! All im sayin!
6. Made great relationships with people that i would never trade for anything
7. Made God the center of my life.
8. Volunteered
9. GOT A JOB!
10. GOT MY LICENSE!
11. Had fun with my friends in the musical
12. Learned to help others.
13. Finished my Sophomore year lol :)
14. Started blogging more :) haha
15. Started researching and hearing from colleges.. :/
16. Got a debit card! haha these are big milestones for a 16 year old! :)
17. Got started in an Asthma study.
18. Hung out with friends lots!
19. Had my fair share of downs/bad things but ya know what can you do?
20. Started trying to gain back my self confidence.

Sooo there is 2009 in recap for you! :) Hoping 2010 is full of so much more!

God Bless,
Ashley

Hopefully All Smiles and Happiness

Hey all! :)

Sorry its been awhile since my last blog post, everything has gotten crazy!


There has been a lot on my heart lately and its been pretty tough to decipher what is going on with me. As some of you most likely have read in my previous posts, I have had relationship issues in the past. Even though its been almost a year and a half I cant seem to shake it. Its not the guy that I cant shake its what happened and the fear that keeps clinging to me. Anytime a guy even comes close to me I put up this wall and that’s that. Yes I am fine with guys being my friends, no problem, but at the same time I fear the feelings changing. Honestly I don’t want to fear anything!! But for some odd reason I get this feeling in the pit of my stomach that just knots up and goes.. “Ashley remember when? He doesn’t really care about you. Remember your past? Do you want to relive that?” and I just want to scream SHUT-UP to that voice! I mean that was all in the past and don’t understand why this fear is still with me. I don’t get it at all. Why cant I be happy? Don’t I deserve it??

Right now I feel like I am at a stand-still. Things are flying by me and everything is happening so quickly but yet it seems as if this past week has been years. :) ahh! I know this might not make sense, haha you all know I tend to ramble! Right now all I really need is prayers, mostly prayers for my sanity! Haha just kidding! :)



I have come across a few things in the past couple days that really spoke to me….

“A good criterion for measuring your success in life is the number of people you have made happy”---- Robert J. Lumsden



“You make me smile like the sun, fall outta’ bed, sing like a bird, dizzy in my head. Spin like a record crazy on a Sunday night. You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe, shine like gold, buzz like a bee. Just the thought of you can drive me wild. Oooh you make me smile..”—Smile by Uncle Cracker



Thanks for listening to me ramble on and on lol whats a blog for huh?

God Bless,

Ashley