Wondering why these feelings are happening...

Hey everyone,

Im not sure exactly where these feelings are coming from, but they are here and they wont go away.

About at least a month ago I gave God the pen to my love life and i felt really good about it. But at the same time i had speculations but i pushed them aside because i was so proud of myself.

Now im not sure what to think.... I dont think that anyone is ever going to come my way and that i am never going to get married and have a family. And its tough for me because thats what i want... and im not sure if thats what God wants for me. I just need to know what he is thinking but of course that is impossible.

As you can tell i tend to be very impatient. Its not one of my best qualities but i cant deny it.

I want to be loved.... gosh... im really screwed up


Talk to you later,
Ashley

An Actual update... haha

Hey all!

Well here is an actual update and not a crap load of links...haha thanks to the "fun" research paper in English class.
All is pretty good with me, except i had the stomach flu yesterday.. im feeling better though! Only a half day today because of conferences, but i still had musical practice until 2. And tonight i am babysitting and then relaxing with the family.
Life has been pretty good for me lately. If you can keep me in your prayers for just different things that i am trying to achieve in my life in general and during lent.
I am still loving the book that my youth minister lent to me! And i am starting to prayer journal every night which i find really helpful! :D I am learning to not just pray for what i want but for what God wants for me. Life is good when God is on your side, truth be told i have never felt this good about life until i have given so many things to God. He does wonderful things
Hope all is well!
Love,
Ashley

more more more links! haha :D sorry guys! :(d

Hey sorry for all the links but i got to do it! :D love you all! :D


http://www.ed.gov/policy/gen/guid/religionandschools/index.html

http://tarlton.law.utexas.edu/clark/

http://atheism.about.com/od/mikehuckabeechristianity/a/HuckabeePrayer.htm

http://usgovinfo.about.com/library/weekly/aa070100a.htm

http://atheism.about.com/b/2004/06/25/this-date-in-history-prayer-in-public-schools.htm

http://usgovinfo.about.com/library/news/aa061900b.htm

http://usgovinfo.about.com/library/news/aa032100a.htm

http://atheism.about.com/od/bookreviews/fr/WithoutPrayer.htm




Ok here is your update. Nothing big has been happening, still living my life for God! My youth minister lent me this book "When God writes your love story" and i love it!!!!!! I am committed and i love my life at the moment! School is going good, i made the B honor roll for the 1st 2 quarters :D Thank God its friday!!!!!!! Im ready for the weekend! :D I am excited to hang out with my grandparents this weekend and possibly to go caribou with Maddie on saturday morning! :D Tonight will just be me and my grandma :D im really excited!!! We might go up to church for a fish dinner thing too. Well english is almost over so i better get going :D Love you all! God bless,

Ashley <3

More links! :D

Here are more links for me haha :D

http://www.allacademic.com/meta/p_mla_apa_research_citation/2/5/5/2/3/p255233_index.html

http://www.au.org/site/News2?page=NewsArticle&id=9059&news_iv_ctrl=0&abbr=resources

http://www.edweek.org/login.html?source=http://www.edweek.org/ew/articles/2005/03/09/26brief-2.h24.html&destination=http://www.edweek.org/ew/articles/2005/03/09/26brief-2.h24.html&levelId=2100

http://usgovinfo.about.com/library/weekly/aa070100a.htm

http://www.infidels.org/library/modern/church-state/decisions.html

http://www.religioustolerance.org/ps_pray.htm

http://www.mycentraljersey.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20080416/NEWS/804160315/1001

http://www.pbs.org/newshour/extra/features/jan-june00/prayerdecision.html

http://www.talkleft.com/story/2004/04/26/930/74698

http://www.nationalcenter.org/scot63.htm

http://caselaw.lp.findlaw.com/scripts/getcase.pl?court=US&vol=370&invol=421

http://www.free2pray.info/2schoolprayerrulings.html

http://www.witchvox.com/white/wscourt_schools.html

http://usgovinfo.about.com/blschoolprayer.htm

http://www.jewishsf.com/content/2-0-/module/displaystory/story_id/14645/edition_id/284/format/html/displaystory.html

http://www.ffrf.org/nontracts/schoolprayer.php

http://www.secularhumanism.org/library/shb/lloyd_16_3.htm

http://www.religioustolerance.org/ps_pray.htm

FOR SCHOOL! HAHA

Well, i am sitting in English class researching for a paper and we are allowed to email the articles that we find on our topics. WELL..... schools computer will not let me get into my email so here i am completly lost trying to figure out were to post the links. Wierd enough the school computers let me into my blog! so i am going to post all of the links on here lol, sorry this isnt the most recent update on me but its for school! haha my topic is " How Should prayer be allowed in public schools" so if you have any interest in that go ahead and click on the links posted below.
Here we go! P.s if i have time i will do a quick update about me at the bottom :D thank you! :D

http://www.opposingviews.com/questions/should-prayer-be-allowed-in-public-schools

http://www.allaboutpopularissues.org/should-prayer-be-allowed-in-school-faq.htm

http://www.helium.com/knowledge/3298-should-prayer-be-allowed-in-public-andor-private-schools

http://www.forerunner.com/forerunner/X0098_Ban_on_school_prayer.html

http://www.infidels.org/library/modern/church-state/prayer.html


http://www.99polls.com/poll_36914

http://aclu.procon.org/viewanswers.asp?questionID=694

http://www.allabouthistory.org/prayer-in-public-school.htm

http://www.helium.com/items/1224460-school-prayer

http://www.adl.org/religion_ps_2004/prayer.asp

http://www.momversation.com/forum/should-prayer-be-sanctioned-activity-public-schools

http://www.momversation.com/forum/should-prayer-be-sanctioned-activity-public-schools

http://www.gallup.com/poll/17494/School-Prayer-Teen-Support-Hinges-Type.aspx

Its a Jesus filled Saturday!!! :D

I am so excited at the moment!!!! Youth leadership and teen training and lifeline mass+ a talk tomorrow night!!!! I cant wait!!!!! :D I really need this uplifting mass and reflection time after the things that i have had to deal with recently. Oh goodness. Well i am really happy :D I was chosen by the church to go to YTM which is a 2 week program at st johns in june, but also comes with a two year comittment. I am fully up for that!!!!! I cannot wait! Jessie, Emily and i were picked and are going together. i cannot wait to spend such an amazing experience with them! :D
well hope to talk to you later! :D
Ashley

Its a Theatre thing!

Well what do you know!?!? :D Hi to all, so sorry for the lack of updates, i thought i would do one on my acheivements and then post about what this crazy lady over here has been doing! :D I miss all of you and would love to hear from you :D Life has been going pretty well, things happen but you know in the end they really arent worth the pain, wallowing or even the tears. Everything happens for a reason and through out it all its just goes to show that God has a plan for us and we need to let his will be done on our lives :D
Well let me see!!! Oh yeah!!! I made the musical!!!!!!!! I am so happy! We have started practicing, well mostly choral practice and the music is pretty addicting haha (as i type this blog i am pretty much humming the music lol) The shows are the first weekend in April so let me know if you would like to attend it would mean lots to me! :D

I am also taking creative writing as one of my electives for 2nd semester and i am so excited and cant wait to start!! I love to write, but i just need the inspiration behind it and the confidence :D But wow after my article was published i felt soooo good! :D

Well loves you all of you!,
May God bless you and keep you,
Ashley