Hey everyone,
Im not sure exactly where these feelings are coming from, but they are here and they wont go away.
About at least a month ago I gave God the pen to my love life and i felt really good about it. But at the same time i had speculations but i pushed them aside because i was so proud of myself.
Now im not sure what to think.... I dont think that anyone is ever going to come my way and that i am never going to get married and have a family. And its tough for me because thats what i want... and im not sure if thats what God wants for me. I just need to know what he is thinking but of course that is impossible.
As you can tell i tend to be very impatient. Its not one of my best qualities but i cant deny it.
I want to be loved.... gosh... im really screwed up
Talk to you later,
Ashley
1 comment:
Sweetheart, you must remember that everything happens in God's perfect timing, not ours. I was very much like you when I was your age, I wanted nothing more than to be a wife and a mother. I even dropped out of college because I was convinced I didn't need an education or a job! The thing is, I was certain I would be married by the time I was 19 ... I didn't get married until I was 24. I made a LOT of mistakes between those years, searching for men to love me, yet all the while "trusting" God, but not trusting Him at all. When you give your love life to God, you have to completely let go of control - slide away from the steering wheel and sit on the passenger seat of your life, so to speak. Trust that God does know the desires of your heart, and the Bible says that if we trust in the Lord He WILL give us the desires of our heart. You just have to remember that it is in HIS timing, and not ours.
I'm praying for you sweetie - if you need to chat, I'm here. Can't wait to see your musical next weekend!
I love you!
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