Annoyed

Hey All! So sorry for the lack of posting, school is finally out and i have some time to relax... lol who am I kidding?!?!?
I need to get something off my chest so please bare with me through this....

Lately I have been bogged down with comments/insults/asumptions/and judgements from people around me at school and in life. People who do not look past what is visible to the eye, people who feel that they should make rude comments about others, and most importantly people who have no idea what they are talking about but still decide to make comments. Dealing with all of this on a daily basis is SO hard, and no easy to look past.

Since my boyfriend and i have started dating, people feel the need to be rude. Flat out, rude, mostly to him. Knowing this it hurts me beacuse I dont want him to have to deal with that because of me, its truly horrible. People have approached him saying:
"Your dating her? Isnt she fat and ugly?"-NO LIE
"Well he is just takin' one for the team, so none of us would have to date someone like her"
"Your dating WHO!?"
*I could continue but in all honest i dont want to*

Hearing those things hurts me, and infuriates my boyfriend.

As for me, I dont want him to have to deal with that because of me, who I am, what I look like etc. I feel that he shouldnt have to deal with all of that crap, because he is dating me. It really hurts me inside to hear these things, but it almost hurts worse for me to know that he has to deal with it, almost daily.

Readers, you know how insecure I am about myself, and yes its embarrassing to admit that, but I am going to be honest. I feel like I can never be good enough, look pretty enough, be thin enough, be smart enough, and the list goes on.

But my main point of this post is to tell you that....this whole situation bothers me to no end!  I DO NOT understand why people feel the need to judge others, I DO NOT understand why people feel the need to be so incredibly hurtful, and I DO NOT understand why people feel the need to impose and try and alter other people's happiness. Its like with anything you do in life people are always going to stick their noses where they dont belong... But here's a NEWSFLASH!
*I AM HAPPY with Billy!
*Our Relationship is built upon Church, Respect, Understanding and God
*We know the TRUTH.

And still no matter how much i try to not let this whole situation bother me it still does....but right now is where I lean on God, and HIS TRUTH. His Will for my/our life(ves) is still unknown, but it is great! Please pray that I can find strength in this situation and stop being so... ANNOYED!
God Bless,
Ashley

Each and Every One Of Us, Is A Wondrous Work Of Art. Signed By The Hand Of God.

Hey all! :)

How are you?!?! :)

Right now, I am taking a break from my homework (well actually i am pretty much done!) to take some time to blog about whatever tends to be on my heart.

Today is like my thursday! :) Tomorrow is my last day of school for the week and then thursday morning i am off to NCYC :) It is so hard to put into words how I am feeling about taking this trip, but let me tell you every morning and throughout the day I wake up asking myself "Is it thursday YET!?!?" So you can tell I pretty excited :) I am taking this trip with Super amazing people from my church! :) They are such blessings, with such wonderful hearts for God, and a will to follow him and also the Catholic faith. We are all ready to dive head first into what God has planned for us!


This is most of our delegation from St. Henrys! :)                                                  More

So above are some pictures of multiple people that are in our delegation! :) Sadly i am missing 2 people :(

We are all really excited and cannot wait to go :)

''Hope does not disappoint us, because God's love has been poured into our hearts by the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.' Prayer, formed by the liturgical life, draws everything into the love by which we are loved in Christ and which enables us to respond to him by loving as he has loved us. Love is the source of prayer; whoever draws from it reaches the summit of prayer.''

 

NCYC - the largest single gathering of Catholic youth in the country - encompasses a wide variety of opportunities to learn about and experience the Catholic faith.

I cant even begin to process how i feel right now :) Soo wonderful! And i definately want to thank all of the people/famililies/and orginizations that donated money to me and my delegation for this trip! Thank you soo much! :) It cost roughly $450 and my family and i did not have to pay a cent of it due to the generosity of others :) Thank you soo much!
I feel that God truly wants me at this conference, he has made ways for me to get through so many obstacles to get to where i am today, all set to go. He has provided me with so much that i have needed, and i know that with all of the things that God does for me i will be forever thankful :) 

 

God is sooo good! 

Each night before i go to bed, i light a candle, turn off the lights, turn on one of my favorite songs "Hope Now"- By Addison Road, and pray the NCYC novena :) Its such an amazing feeling :) Then i go to bed praying my rosary like normal and i just feel at peace. 

My wonderful youth minister Kym tells me that she knows God wants her with us at St. Henry's, and me being inquistive i ask 

Well how do you know that??

And she answers.... "Its just that peace that you feel when you pray, you can just know once you feel that." 

So now every time i go to pray (which is a lot) but i mean the in depth prayer i wait for that peace, that knowing sign from God that this is all part of his plan for me. I have no idea what his plan is for me but whatever it is i cannot wait to find out. Our father up in heaven has great plans for each and everyone of us :) And now that i just said that it reminds me of the responsorial psalm at mass this past sunday sung but the childrens choir.... 

"Each and every one of us, each and every one of us, is a wondrous work of art, is a wondrous work of art. Signed by the hand of God" :)

I would really appreciate prayers for my trip if you feel called to pray for me and my delegation. :) Right now i just feel completely blessed by all the things that have been done in my life and so thankful. Its so amazing :) Please pray for me and my delegation, also our Chaperones: Kym and Kurt. :)

Your prayers are super appreciated by all! :) I hope to post another blog tomorrow night as a pack and get ready :) 

Thanks so much for taking time to read this and time to step into my God filled life :)

YOU ARE SOO LOVED!

God Bless!

LOVE!